I am not very interested in submitting. It seems rather tiresome. I just have to wait to see what will happen.
I do not have any say in what will happen. I am much more interested in the other submitting. Because then I suddenly have to decide what to do. I can do anything. I can be cruel or kind or redemptive or imaginative. I can seek to frustrate or satisfy the other. What will I choose and will I think of myself for having chosen that way? In Amsterdam once I went to an art exhibition in a church (het Koninklijkvrijekerkkunstencentrum or something). One of the artists announced a project to be a slave for a month and invited visitors who wanted a slave to leave their details. A name would be drawn from the hat of these replies. I was really delighted by this idea. Of course, for the first ten minutes I imagined that I would have a sex slave, but then I started to imagine the process. What would I do? I would be responsible for this slave. How could I use a slave in a way that would be challenging and beneficial for her and for me? How could I construct the time so that it would be the best thing that either of us had ever done? How could I do that without becoming her slave in the process? Should I free her immediately, even if that was the dullest possible outcome? How could I invest the slave with some authority and responsibility so that I was not burdened with all the weight of ensuring that the slave.month went well? |